I almost Can't Believe It

With only today, tomorrow, the following day & one other day, the deadline to be moved out of our tiny home happens! It seemed impossible & I had no idea how we were going to find a new place during winter, in time. I became highly demoralized & started moving most of my assets into storage & to other peoples homes. I focused on turning the depression into motivation to engage action to solve problems & make it happen. 

Meg also strongly endeavored to find a housing solution with her finally blessed extensive online searching daily for over a month, and found us another place to live that's within our budget & closer to her job & my job, which will save us money on vehicle expenses, while more importantly saving time daily. The new landlord's are going to be sharing the house, food, energy & time with us & I am super excited as is Meg :) Its far more than I was asking for, its a miracle, and I almost can't believe its happening, thankfully! 

I woke up today around 4am today feeling really sick, having had extreme gas all night that woke me up & sent me to the bathroom many times. I think the lack of sleep + all the mounting continual stress lately did as well. 

I was feeling demoralized & hopeless with strong negative ideas lately. I shared my struggle with a friend at work named Peter, who encouraged me to "call out sick & take a few days, Wed, Thu, Fri" off of work" to reset, make what seemed impossible happen, to do things I enjoy, finish moving stuff off the farm & out of the tiny home, move things into wonderful new place, to move things from Dr. O's to the new place, get setup, then go to church on Sunday & thank God with intense praise & worship for making a way where there seemed to be none, and not only that, but giving us something way better than we were thinking of. 

I am choosing to forgive the unreasonable actions taken against me for no good reason, all the false accusations, unfair judgement, & other negatively & inaccuracies lobbed at me because I learned the real truth about why our land lady asking us to leave. 

She does not like me because I am a man & remind her of her X husband. She furthermore dislikes me because we have nicer vehicles & more money. Her children told me disturbing things about her, as did the neighbors, and so many other people who used to work for her who are now unwilling to return. 

Her older children deliberately moved away to "get away from her" as the younger ones warned me in private "That she has a history of not paying people she has agreements with for work they have done" and "will change her mind rapidly without warning in what is similar to stabbing someone in the back" or "being wildly inconsistent with descriptions of the work, in such a way that irritates & annoys people into leaving & not finishing what they started" such that she refuses to pay these people, saying "That is not what I asked you to do" suggesting they its their fault for not getting paid. 

I almost cannot believe the truth about what is happening, but am choosing to move on in peace, and choose to Bless her in the name of Christ Jesus. I choose to bless her home & her homestead & farm, the animals, insects, utilities, buildings, dirt, soil, water & air around her land in the Name of Christ Jesus. I pray God's blessing over her & her children & her x-husband. 

You & I don't have to answer to God for what other people are doing, to harm nature, other people, the environment, human health, or making governments worse with bribery & corruption, causing war, child trafficking, narcotics abuse or worse. 

Everyone accountable for their words, actions & behaviors as encoded into their mind & soul forever, noting that in physics energy never created or destroyed but only changes forms, into long wave IR radiation in terms of the human mind for example #physics!  

You are probably not personally directly responsible for climate change, storm systems, crime, pollution, corruption, war or other large scale problems. 

Doing your part to be a good person who helps other people & makes the world a better place by making positive differences where you have the power to create change, that's all you can do. So focus on where you can make a positive difference. 

Forgiveness inwardly & outwardly super important. In the adapted words of a very wise person who I am forgetting the name of //  "you will see a lot happening in the world, but choose to forgive most of it, and change the little that you are able to improve" / I am adding to that "Have a Can Do attitude & be encouraged & empowered to know that you can make a positive difference with random acts of kindness, helping other people, teaching & sharing edifying ideas about the power of forgiveness. 

It's not about justifying the wrongs of someone else, it's about freeing yourself of unforgiving toxic negative feelings & the mind body disturbances that translate into diseases that negative thoughts can create over time. It is not about positive thinking, it means applied loving kindness inwardly towards yourself & treating other people with dignity & respect. 

That means being a real leader by inspiring other people with the best examples, showing them how to operate on higher levels of intelligence through eyes of love. So be careful for nothing, loving in everything. 

Trust in your Faith in God the creator of everything in all realms of existence. Be encouraged to know & believe that you can harness your cognitive focus to make meaningful positive difference that improve life for everyone. 

When people approach life with love, pollution reduced, crime reduced, healing from forgiveness abounds, and we make the world a friendlier nicer place to live. We owe it to ourselves, our children & future generators to improve recycling & energy efficiency by applying technologies in ways that reduce harm to nature, that improve public & environmental health. 

Everything has a cause & everything in the biosphere of Earth chemically connected by chemical reactions largely governed by valence electron sharing or exchanges. Consider how a catalyst or enzymes lower the energy of activation for a chemical reaction or biochemical reaction to proceed from chemical and energy inputs to chemical and energy outputs, by loaning the noble metal ions outer electrons. 

Well everything in this life on loan to us, since life is temporary & everyone has a finite time alive. Something new is only new until it is first used. This is why selfish materialism wasteful, since many people can make good use of something an individual can only at best use sparingly. This is why adults have a moral obligation to give children edifying instruction as honorable parents & teachers through education at home & at school. 

We unknowingly, often unwittingly, repeat things we learn through observation, seeing & hearing. In a way, the human mind kind of like a hall of mirrors in the way that it recursively bounces information around to encode the worthwhile to remember information as protein synthesis in brain cells. 

Neuron plasticity means your brain literally becomes more life what you do with your mind, what you say, what you hear, what you watch, the way you interact with others & things. We become like what we do regularly. This is the power of habits or habitually praying or reading the Bible or learning how to play the piano or myriad of other skills & abilities that people have the potential to acquire & apply during life. 

"Brain neurons that fire together wire together" nothing that the brain is wetware, self assembles from cells, and a remarkable complicated computer like machine that uses electron signals from sensory organs to make sense about the world. This is the same human brain that named itself, that operates in a dark liquid filled scull bone container isolated from phenomena happening in the world. So our brain takes electron signals & does complex information analytics to predict about & make sense about the world & how we relate to it. 

Your persona a very complex mixture of your mind & body & changes with time. Your voice is unique, as is your look & mind itself. Everyone has different life experiences that programs their mind software. This is why so many illogical fears, phobias & confusion exist, because some people have negative experiences that cause their brain to make illogical predictions. 

This is why some people fear public speaking, they hold a perception that they will rejected, but this often not true, or irrelevant, since the audience composed of many kinds of people, most of whom will listen to & try their best to make sense of the speakers presentation. 

Thus people being logical are not afraid to speak to large audience with authority on topics they are well familiar with as experts. This is why Adults teach children not the other way around. It takes around 8000 hours of experience with something to become an expert, assuming you are endeavoring the entire time to increase your skills & understanding. But we know that people have a habit of being emotionally unstable & reactive, taking offense to others & not responding daily. 

This is why road rage exists. Some people are deeply mentally ill. In faith terms they are likely being influenced or manipulated by bad evil unclean spirits. These evil spirts want to cause people to hurt other people, to steal from, kill & destroy other people & nature. Evil spirits hate God & all things that are good, honorable, fair, honest, reasonable, balanced, moral or ethical. 

Pre-moving been ongoing for several weeks with donations, runs of stuff to the storage unit, moving stuff to other peoples homes & more. 

Day 1 of official moving, after 6 hours & several car's full, I am very sore all over & just took an ibuprofen & a big glass of water. A lot of off angle lifting of moderately heavy items made my back really sore. Meg helped with 2 of the 6 runs so far. I feel spent & she has to return to work soon. I went to work with Meg this morning so I have been going full steam since 5:15 am & just stopped moving now at 2:15pm. I like our new place & am excited at how much closer it is to work for both of us. The house very dusty with construction dust from the remodeling that's been ongoing. So much cleaning remains, along with the actual moving in part. The actual "move in" date starts tomorrow on Friday, but the nice people renting us their basement let us start today to get a head start so we could span out the workload. We are both very light on sleep & I imagine I will be out cold early tonight to get going tomorrow morning & finish by the end of the day on Saturday!