I have no idea where these "memories" or "ideas" come from, but I distinctly remember living in ancient Persia, as a nobleman who grew old & very lonely, having never made a lifelong friend or wife, isolated & lonely waiting to die. I wanted nothing more than to come back as a regular person. Perhaps that is what this life is, as Aaron Schwarz. There are smells & flavors from Persian culture, incense, and other aspects of Persian culture that seem deeply familiar to me. I do not understand why either.
I have this strange early childhood memory of sitting on the edge of another dimensional layer near God, and looking down at the United States in the early 1980's, seeing Washington State, zooming into a small city called bellevue & watching a tragic winter snow car accident happen where Erika Lynn Schwarz was ultimately killed. The young man driving the car with bald tires to get home from work, never meant to hurt anyone, it was a pure accident. I forgive Bart for this accident. I had to write this through tears to share it too. I remember feeling this tremendous sadness, a deep pining empathy & sympathy & feeling the pain of Ken & Connie & Andrea Schwarz. I remember asking God "Can I please go and help those people" then my next memory is opening my eyes & finding it impossible to "fly around effortless" & spent my first few years as a young child making many futile attempts before I was verbal, to fly, and thought it was odd to be gravity confined, stuck to the surface of whatever I was standing on, the upstairs floor of my parents home back then. They adopted me, my teenager mother had given me up for adoption. I became part of the Schwarz family, even though the blood the flows through me, my DNA, comes from Peggy & David, the teens who in late 1982 shared their DNA in what went on to make me inside Peggy. I have never been able to find David, but I got to meet Peggy a few times, the last time in 2008. I also have many half brothers & sisters genetically, through Peggy & her future husbands.
Are we sometimes reincarnated, a question that no one can answer. The scientific truth is that we do not even have a darwinian explanation for how life originated on Earth. Let me say that again, there is no science that explains how life developed, no iterative slow decent with modification of darwinian slow drift genetic evolution that could produce the radical finely balances & exquisite complexity of blood clotting, the human eyes & vision system or any other other biological life on Earth with finely balanced DNA, epigenetic mechanisms with ultra precise balance, proteomic systems & cytokine signaling systems in a fine interconnected balance. Any imbalance, no matter how small, in any of these systems, would kill a person in seconds. Each cell in the human body has more than 75,000 enzymes going 1000 mile per hour making 100 different chemical reactions occur, that are only possible because those specialized proteins catalyst the reactions at body temperature, just slightly above STP or standard temperature & pressure or the average Earth ground levels conditions.
Much mystery remains in most domains of life, or there is great room for improvement in all areas of life. We can make everyone better, all systems can improve, every product & service can be optimized continually. We will never be done because there will always be newer emergent ways to do something faster, with less energy or greater efficiency. To explore deep space for example we need to develop rocket propulsion with radically more iSP or specific impulse than fuel mass paradox chemical rockets like the Falcon 9. Chemical rockets are about 90% fuel & thats why spin launching developing as a technology in New Mexico, USA. We can barely travel to the Moon or Mars slowly with chemical rockets. The closest star system with planets about 4.3 light years away, the distance it takes light to travel at 3.0x10^8 m/s or 186,000 miles per second, something that would take weak chemical rockets millennia to reach. We need HAL thrusters powered by nuclear reactors, ZPE or FTL faster than light Warp Speed to get to Alpha Centauri or any other interesting places outside our local cluster in the Milky Way. Yes, Earth just a tiny little wet rock with a tiny little GV2 sun in a tiny part of a spiral arm of the Milky Way Galaxy, where billions of other starts & billions more planets, some similar to Earth exist, where other sentient life probably exists. There are billions of galaxies like the Milky Way too! We will find other conscious lifeforms, like humans, who are likely millions of years more technologically advanced. They will study us the way humans study ants & other insects.
Add in other dimensions, above the 3rd or 4th dimension. Perhaps up to 121 levels. No one knows. Maybe multiverses & other instances of the Big Ban are happening continually. We have not even scratched the surfaces of reality yet, even with our amazing biochemistry & physics quantum computers & other high tech telecommunications & compute technologies today. Life on earth still vastly more complex that most human technologies. Quantum Physics starting to show us more aspects of reality. Science only very slowly generates new knowledge. People are still espousing outdated Neo-darwinian microevolutionary theory to explain the macromolecular origins of life without every explaining the causal basis or biochemical pathways. Scientists often just repeat what other scientists are saying, it takes decades to make big strides in technology. Entrenchment & corruption hold back better emergent solutions so those who own the current means can maximize their profits before they succumb to a painful death where they can't take the ill-gotten gains with them to the afterlife.
Betting on God & Heaven or Nothing or Possibly Going to Hell ? Its your soul your gambling with, you cannot buy another soul either.
If you believe in God & God exists, infinite reward
If you do not believe in God & God exists, infinite punishment
If you do not believe in God & God does not exist, nothing
If you believe in God & God does not exist, nothing
So choose to believe in God, its the only safe bet! We are talking about infinity after this short life! Perhaps not if we are reincarnated ? Does God give us another spin through living another life ? Return to the start & start over. It feels like that happened to me. Its a deep seated feeling that I have been unable to shake for 38 years. A feeling like I have been here on Earth at a much earlier time in history & much was the same, about people & the way things work. "It was not all roses and sunshine" good mixed with bad, good & bad people mixed up, ethics & criminals both happening, like today. The world has never been a perfect place to live because people have different ideas about what "Better" means. Culture & philosophies of men vary depending on where & when you are. I bet time travel is possible using extra dimensional gateway access, remote viewing, astral projection or other means.
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